2011, not a good year for me.

Last update: March 13. Tahniah Hani, kau la blogger terajin di Malaysia.

Yup, 2011. Totally not a good year for me. You see, some stories we always want to tell to the whole world. But my stories, maybe not all should be told to some creepy strangers. haha. ok, no i didnt meant u.

For this 2011, two things have upset me much. 1 for my 1st Semester pointer, and 2nd for my life in UTP.

For the pointer part, its end here. fullstop. i dont want to talk much about it.

My life in UTP, maybe you wonder why it upset me so much eh? Back in March, I have join an event, as one of the committees for Martial Arts Festival a.k.a MAFest 2011. Yup, again as the Head of Department of Sponsorship.

Maybe you who rarely joining an event, would say: "hey, it just one damn event. nothing much eh." But for me, this event has totally give impact to me. TOTALLY.

Then last week, i decided to quit from it. *kill me now, i dont want to quit from it. true story*

First, I have a strong reason. Secondly, yes, my parents asked me to quit from it.

I know, this will bring big impact to MAFest too. I'm the HOD of sponsors, a crucial dept. But, im so sorry. Parents are more important, and i think i have to think about myself too.

Just that, there are something that really dissapointed me until now:

1. I have lost the event myself. After 3 months struggling for it + sacrificed my study time, i just let it go like that. Sad that I will never reach and able to touch the star at the end.

2. I have lost the ukhuwah that I have build with the other committees. Not totally. But you see, it will never be the same. And now, im missing them so much. I love them. The fact that im resigning from it, just make me wanna puke. Yes, i know, some people just dissapointed with my decisions. But, idk.

Seeing them, my ex-MAFest family, make me wanna cry.

I myself, also dissapointed with myself.

To the person: I am sorry. Yup, you are the one who make me strong in this event. But then, i make this decision. All the memories with u will always remain in my heart. Even i know, maybe after this we will not become friends anymore.

I will always remember your words: "Kalau aku bagitau kau, ko jangan bagitau sesiapa tau. walaupun..." This senteces is special for me, because from it, i know you believe in me.

Our friendship will always remain special for me. fullstop.

Last word from me: I hope this event will become successful.

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Dia mendapat pahala dari kebajikan yang dikerjakannya dan dia mendapat siksa dari kejahatan yang diperbuatnya." [Al-Baqarah, ayat 286]

Credits to Farhan Zaini untuk ayat tu.